Recently, my indecision over a matter has made me feel both obsessed and indifferent. The two spirits alternate with each other, recurring repeatedly and constantly transforming. It's obvious that I'm just an ordinary person and haven't practiced enough. I can't be a pure demon or a Buddha, although I believe that pure demons and Buddhas are both supreme realms.
But reason, cognition, morality and the greed, anger and ignorance of being human all influence me. I do have very strong goals, and it seems that I also have an obsession that I can't let go of, but it's only temporary. I haven't developed an endless demonic nature yet. And when the demonic nature in my heart accumulates to a certain extent, the power of moral choice and the Buddha nature of seeking inner light are unlocked, allowing me to break free from the control of negative emotions and desires. Then my self-attachment vanishes, and then it alternates and repeats.
Human nature is generally complex. Becoming a demon or a Buddha can happen in an instant. So, dependent origination, emptiness of nature.
